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a buffy question -- clandestina, 02:01:14 12/23/01 Sun

okay, the "line of slayers" is confusing to me. the Watchers Council assumes that a slayer won't live to be much older than 18, correct? and buffy was called when she was 15 or 16. so do they automatically place the slayers to be two years apart from each other in age? buffy, kendra, and faith all seemed to be about the same age. why would they call a 17 or 18 year old slayer if she's gonna kick the bucket soon anyways?

and what happens if a slayer lives to be older than 18? if a slayer lives to be, say, 30, will they call a 28 year old slayer who is presumedly past her prime? or would they go down the line and call someone else? for all we know, faith could sit in jail for the rest of her life, leaving her to die an old woman. so are they gonna call some old lady to be the slayer just because she was the next in line?

and what if a slayer dies really young, like the second she is called? are they going to call a thirteen year old slayer? and if she dies quickly too, are they going to call an eleven year old and on down the line until they're eventually calling stake-wielding toddlers?

maybe i'm thinking about this too much (ok i totally am!), but i don't get it. can anyone explain, or is there nothing to explain b/c the writers haven't made it clear?
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[> I don't believe the watchers themselves call the slayers. -- Adrenfreak, 04:06:49 12/23/01 Sun

It just happens, and they have to find em.
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[> [> Re: I don't believe the watchers themselves call the slayers. -- skpe, 06:16:50 12/23/01 Sun

There have been hints dropped that the slayer is called by the PTB's and that the WC act as mentors and guides. Thou I will admit the whole calling thing has been left ambiguous
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[> My hypothesis: The "Slayer" possesses each Chosen One. -- bookworm, 11:42:22 12/23/01 Sun

The show hasn't really given us a lot of information to go on about the Slayer. We know that a Slayer -- usually just one -- has existed since before recorded history, almost as long as there have been vampires. We know that the Watcher's Council was formed to help guide the Slayer. We know that some Watchers are apparently able to identify Chosen Ones before they are Chosen. Kendra's family sent her to her Watcher when she was a small child to be trained. The Watchers apparently weren't aware that Buffy and Faith were potential Chosen Ones until they'd been Chosen. We know that Kendra was called after Buffy "died" the first time and Faith was called after Kendra died. The Slayer line now passes through Faith. We've seen the "First Slayer" in the fourth season episode "Restless," where she attacks the Scooby Gang in their dreams and in "Intervention" where she acts as a spirit guide to Buffy. Other than that, we haven't been given much information. Here's my working hypothesis: I think the "Slayer" is a demon/goddess/ghost/primieval spirit that has existed since pre-history. That spirit goes in search of a new Chosen One when the last one leaves this mortal coil and possesses a new body when she finds one that "tastes good." Each potential Chosen One must be physically, emotionally, spiritually, a perfect specimen to become the next Slayer. Maybe they vibrate psychically; maybe their aura gives off a glow that draws the spirit to them. Their "taste" may have something to do with having just passed through puberty. They are young and strong when they're teenagers, and also emotionally, spiritually, sexually and psychically more sensitive and open than they will be at any other point in their lives. Whatever prompts the Choice, whenever the spirit of the Slayer inhabits a new Chosen One, changes take place. I'd speculate that the spirit activates dormant prehistoric DNA that gives the new body superhuman strength, faster healing powers and psychic gifts, etc. The spirit of the Slayer either coexists or blends with the humanity of the new Chosen One. Her essence probably manifests itself most of the time in the instincts and the subconscious of the human host. Buffy probably doesn't know how she knows what she knows -- she didn't become a martial arts expert overnight, for instance. Her human side is actually pretty clumsy, but when the Slayer takes over she's a killing machine. The Slayer is both darkness and light, aggression and restraint. Buffy's extremely uncomfortable with the dark side of the Slayer and in denial about the NATURE of what she is. She tries to control it or deny it, sometimes successfully and sometimes disastrously. In "Restless," I don't think the First Slayer was called from some other dimension or some other time. She was manifested from BUFFY's subconscious and tried to kill Giles, Willow and Xander because Buffy had briefly lost control of herself when they merged with her. In "Intervention," the First Slayer was a manifestation of Buffy's own subconscious. She was speaking to herself. As Buffy gets older, her battle is more about understanding and accepting the nature of the Slayer inside her. It's something she did better before Angel stomped all over her heart. "I use my emotions," she told Kendra, the Queen of Control. At 16, Buffy accepted that the dark and the light emotions were both part of her as the Slayer and she used them to keep her alive and to give her an edge. After Angel left, she tried to lock down those emotions. Ultimately, she has to accept that the darkness is part of her as much as the light if she's going to keep it from consuming her. "Slayers forge strength from pain." I think the Slayer and the vampire are two sides of a coin. It would make sense if the way they are created is related. The spirit of the Slayer takes over/coexists with the humanity of the Chosen One just as the demon takes over the body of a human and becomes the vampire. Watchers believe that the human dies, leaving only a corpse animated by a demon, but they may be mistaken about the nature of vampires.
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[> Re: a buffy question -- grifter, 13:14:04 12/23/01 Sun

1. The WC doesn't call the Slayers; the PTB choose the new "host".

2. Age is irrelevant since the Slayer gets chosen the second the old Slayer dies, not before that. So, if a Slayer dies at age 80 peacefully in here bed (yeah, like that's gonna happen), it doesn't mean there's a 78 year old granny-slayer out there waving her walking stick at vampires. There would just be another teenage girl out there fighting the forces of evil.

3. The WC and Kendras' parents didn't necessarily have to know she was going to be a slayer. There could be any number of potential slayers out there being trained by the WC.
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[> [> Re: what would happen if..... -- sasha, 15:47:25 12/24/01 Mon

...the current slayer died and the WC couldn't find the new one?
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[> [> Re: a buffy question -- anom, 20:25:14 12/25/01 Tue

"So, if a Slayer dies at age 80 peacefully in here bed (yeah, like that's gonna happen), it doesn't mean there's a 78 year old granny-slayer out there waving her walking stick at vampires. There would just be another teenage girl out there fighting the forces of evil."

Yup. And dozens of former Slayer candidates of all ages in between (& maybe even older!) who were never Chosen, living out normal lives, happy or otherwise.
Holtz's revenge/time paradox -- yabyumpan, 08:21:51 12/23/01 Sun

I read a post on another board of a possible revenge scenario where Holtz with the time-travel demon's help, brings Angelus forward to this time line to kill Angel's "family" and son. Interesting idea which got me thinking, what would happen to present day Angel if Angelus was dusted in this time line? Would present day Angel just cease to exist, would he exist minus demon? The way I see it, present day Angel consists of: Liam + Demon=Angelus + Soul + 250 years of life/death expieriences. Angel is much more now than Angelus was, so if Angelus got dusted, would that leave Angel still with the memories of Angelus and a soul but no demon. Also, what about Liam; was he totally integrated into Angelus and so disappear with him or would he stay as a part of Angel.
Same sort of question but from a different angle, If Angel got zapped by the demon that zapped Xander in the Replacement, making there two of him, what would each one consist of; Angel/Angelus, Liam/Angelus, Angel/Demon (as in Pylea) or none of the above.
Any suggestions, comments etc
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[> Re: Holtz's revenge/time paradox -- AngelVSAngelus, 08:37:57 12/23/01 Sun

I think if Angelus were dusted in the present then Angel would be as well. If Angelus had of died then, there would be no Angel as we know him today. If you of four years ago came forward into time to kill you of the present, and your past self was killed by something, then you too would die. At least, theoretically speaking. This is why they call them time paradoxes
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[> [> Re: Holtz's revenge/time paradox -- grifter, 12:55:55 12/23/01 Sun

Actually, I think it would leave his (new?) soul (+ about 100 years of experience) without a body.
He'd be stuck as a ghost and be haunting Cordelia's flat along with Dennis!
;)
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[> [> [> Dude, if you killed Angelus.... -- AngelVSAngelus, 23:28:00 12/23/01 Sun

then he would have never killed the gypsy girl, and thus never been cursed with the soul in the first place. No soul would be in our realm of the living to be left.
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[> [> [> [> Re: Dude, if you killed Angelus.... -- grifter, 07:25:02 12/24/01 Mon

Hmm, depends on if we're talking about pre-killing-gypsy-girl-Angelus or post-killing-gypsy-girl- Angelus.
The old gypsy-woman didn't curse him right away, so if the p-k-g-A would be sent forward in the time she might have still cursed him, the soul would be spooking around for about 100 years and then try to reposses the p-k-g-A, which would give us Angel (-100 years of xp).

Or I'm really stupid. Could be both.
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[> one more thing on that list... -- anom, 21:22:11 12/23/01 Sun

"The way I see it, present day Angel consists of: Liam + Demon=Angelus + Soul + 250 years of life/death expieriences."

... + Liam's undead body. Which, if it's dusted, is gone. No Angel.
A few thoughts on Holtz's daughter and vampires. -- bookworm, 09:54:10 12/23/01 Sun

I've been curious about her since I saw "Lullaby." Did Angelus and Darla deliberately turn little Sarah into a vampire or did it happen accidentally? If they did, is it possibly the worst act they committed? Her vampire "sires" committed child abuse by creating a "vampire child" who could never defend itself. Why didn't little Vamp Sarah attack her father when he came home and found her? Didn't she need to feed or had she already fed on what was left of her mother and brother? She still acted like a child in need of protection from her father, not a vicious animal. She let her father hold her and sing a lullaby; she cowered in the corner and begged him not to throw her into the sunlight. Was there any part of the human Sarah's nature left in the vampire, or was it just a weak vampire's instinct to protect herself? How does her behavior compare with the Anointed One, the only other child vampire in the Buffy universe?
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[> Re: A few thoughts on Holtz's daughter and vampires. -- Hauptman, 11:43:39 12/23/01 Sun

Good question. The way I understand it, and I am not the most well versed regarding vampirism in the Buffy Universe, once a person is vamped their soul goes on to where souls go (another longer discussion)and the demon that is vampire takes over the near dead body which then dies completely.

It seems the vampire demon doesn't have a personality of it's own but is instead an evil carbon copy of the personality of the victim. The vamp has all the memories of the victim and a warped view of their world. Angelus was all the vice that was packed into Liam's heart come to life. Holtz's daughter was only a child; she had bee loved and cared for. she would have to learn about evil to embrace it. Chipped Spike shows that vamps are not all evil all the time.

I dunno, this answer isn't coming together the way I wanted it to. Bottom line: Sarah didn't have enough evil charged in the ID to make her a vicious vamp bitch at birth. The worst ones seem to have had hardships or emotional pain prior to being vamped (Angel, Darla, Spike, Dru) while ones like the dope in the bar Darla tried to get to turn her seem more tame. So, I think age, intelligence and emotional baggage are elements that contribute to the making of a really vicious vamp.

Also, she seemd to rise rather quickly. Darla seemed to take longer to rise. But we aren't given a firm timeframe or distance that Holt's has to travel on horseback in the epi.

I hope this prattle is somewhat useful. My head hurts. Happy holiday.
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[> [> Re: A few thoughts on Holtz's daughter and vampires. -- grifter, 12:51:07 12/23/01 Sun

I have to agree with Hauptman here...Sarah probably didn't have the "evil" within her personality (yet) to be a typical vamp.

As for the time-frame: Sometimes it takes the little bloodsuckers a long time to get back on their feet, while at other times they seem to rise again immediatley...I'll go with Joss' answer to all the logical mistakes they made: "It's magic!" ;)

Oh, and also, the Annoying One was kinda special I guess, so you can't really compare him to other vamps.
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[> [> [> Re: A few thoughts on Holtz's daughter and vampires. -- Hauptman, 12:56:49 12/23/01 Sun

"the Annoying One"....Ha!
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[> Re: A few thoughts on Holtz's daughter and vampires. -- Rufus, 16:00:18 12/23/01 Sun

Okay, when a vampire is made, it is a demon possession, and infection, that drives out the soul. The soul seems to be the conscience in the Buffyverse...but the memories and personality, or the mind, is the same. The lack of soul seems to give the soulless a predisposition to prefer evil, but we know that vampires can love. So, I think you have a person who is who they were with a suppliment of a demon. If it was just a demon in a people shell, then it would be that much easier to kill them, but with the mind and appearence of who they were, it's more horrific.
The scene in Lullaby with Holtz and his daughter was a heart breaker. You bet that Darla and Angelus made the child a vampire to get the most pain out of the vampire hunter. What I think it did do in one moment was make him mad.

Psyche's transcripts Lullaby:

INT. ENGLISH COTTAGE - NIGHT (FLASHBACK)

BANG! Holtz bursts into his house, just like he did in the flashback of episode 8. All's quiet. A bloody streak on the wall. CAROLINE on the floor; her discarded body contorted like a rag doll. Bassinet on its side on the floor. Angel and Darla, long gone.

CLOSE - HOLTZ

His face twists into a mask of pain. He falls to his knees. Then hears an echo-y voice; distant, as from another world.

SARAH (O.S.)
Papa...

Holtz doesn't react to the voice, which seems to be in his head, something remembered. Again, more distinct this time:

SARAH
Papa -- ?

Holtz freezes, seems to be hearing the voice finally. This isn't some remembered voice. He registers that it's real. He turns and sees --

SWEET LITTLE SARAH

Appearing in a doorway, stepping out of the shadows. She holds a doll that dangles at her side. She rubs her sleepy eyes with a tiny fist. Waking up.

HOLTZ
Sarah --

Holtz reacts with a combination of relief and concern as he sees that she's peering past him with sleepy eyes toward her dead mother. Holtz rushes to her side, holds her close, turning her little face away from the scene.

SARAH
Mummy won't wake up.

Holtz tries to keep it together, holds his daughter to him.

HOLTZ
Shhhh... quiet now.

Holtz smooths her hair. He starts to sing to her.

HOLTZ
(singing, almost a whisper)
Sleep my love and peace attend thee
All through the night;
Guardian angels God will lend thee,
All through the night,
Soft the drowsy hours are...
...creeping...

He trails off as he notices something that we don't yet, as... she continues HUMMING/SINGING the familiar lullaby to herself, unaware of his sudden concern...

...behind Holtz, his two RIDERS appear warily at the door, weapons in hand.

RIDER #1
Captain -- ?

HOLTZ
(without looking at them)
Don't come in here --

The men look to the carnage. Rider #1 crosses himself.

RIDER #1
Sweet Jesus...

HOLTZ
GET OUT!

They do. He slowly disengages from little Sarah. She still seems oddly in her own world. She continues to hum to herself. Dotes on her doll much the way Holtz is doting on her.

Holtz gently backs away from her. Picks up the song under his breath as he backs away... sits in a chair, watches her...

HOLTZ
No forebodings should alarm thee,
They will let no peril harm thee,
All through the night...

Tears may be streaming down his face, or maybe he's doing all he can to keep that from happening as he looks to --

HOLTZ'S POV

Two bruised and distinct VAMPIRE FANG MARKS on her delicate neck.

CLOSE HOLTZ

Looking downward in the direction of his little girl. She's still HUMMING offscreen. As we hold on Holtz...

Holtz was a man with a mission to save the world from the demon vampires, but he couldn't save his own family, they were wiped out while he was off at battle.
His wife,infant son, and daughter were taken from him, worse his daughter was turned into the very monster he fought against. He had to save her.

INT. ENGLISH COTTAGE - DAY (FLASHBACK)

Holtz sits bleary-eyed in the same chair that we left him in. Staring. Sunlight kisses his face from a nearby window. Sun creeping up outside.

The door opens and Holtz's men tentatively enter. They hover there for a moment, concerned for their leader. Finally:

RIDER #1
Captain...

No response from Holtz. He appears to be a zombie for the moment.

RIDER #1
Captain we beg you... let us take you out of this place.

Holtz doesn't respond, continues to stare. Rider #1 looks with fear and trembling to the carnage.

RIDER #1
It's the devil's work...

HOLTZ
(flat)
Not the devil. Just a demon.

RIDER #1
What are we going to do?

Now we see what Holtz has been staring at --

Sarah's doll lies alone in a shaft of morning light. Little Sarah is now pressed into the shadows.

Holtz rises. Resolute.

HOLTZ
Whatever we have to.

Holtz moves to Sarah, looming...

SARAH
Papa?

He reaches down, drags her from her corner. She starts to thrash and cry.

SARAH
Papa! Papa, no!

Holtz drags her kicking and screaming past his confused men, to the door --

EXT. ENGLISH COTTAGE - DAY - CONTINUOUS

Holtz shoves his daughter out the door, pushing her into the morning sunlight --

SARAH

Stumbles outside, turns back -- VAMPFACED. She reaches out toward him even as she BURSTS INTO FLAMES --

Holtz stands at the door, not a trace of emotion on his face. His astounded men beyond, as --

-- Vamp Sarah GOES TO DUST.

VERY CLOSE - HOLTZ

The REFLECTION OF FIRE in his eyes.

Still no emotion, just hardened features. And we are:

Imagine throwing your own child, demon or not, to her death. We will never know how evil she would have been because her father wanted to save her from the demon inside. Darla and Angelus took a man and created a monster, he will never stop and will do what it takes to gain his revenge. He no longer has a larger mission, just a very small one, a personal one. How ironic when Angel should have known joy that he can only feel fear, not just from all those who want the child, but from an evil he created himself.
OT - 12th Poem for Christmas -- Brian, 14:00:19 12/23/01 Sun

THREE ON A THEME

I
Amid hay and dung,
Among dumb animals,
Alone in time,
While three kings follow a star,
And shepherds abide in wonder,
A Child opens His eyes
To see rough timbers.
The celebration of Peace begins.

II
In snow quiet flight
Three shepherds sight
Angels whispering bright
Heralding newborn Light.

III
In the cold of one naked night
While a huge star looms
To touch a gentle manager,
A Child opens His wondering, knowing eyes,
And silence embraces the holy group,
Gathered to witness the birth of Peace.

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[> Thank you! Very heartwarming! -- Nina, 12:59:28 12/26/01 Wed

Holiday Greetings -- Valkyrie, 06:25:19 12/24/01 Mon

Happy Holidays to you all. I've enjoyed your stimulating discussions. Back to lurker mode...
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[> Same from me ;) -- grifter, 07:14:50 12/24/01 Mon

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[> A peaceful and happy season to all. -- Cactus Watcher, 07:38:49 12/24/01 Mon

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[> Happy Holidays, everyone. -- Wiccagrrl, 11:03:46 12/24/01 Mon

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[> Bah, Humbug! -- vampire hunter D, 14:01:54 12/24/01 Mon

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[> Benedictus -- OnM, 20:32:02 12/24/01 Mon

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I had excerpted a small portion of this lovely and powerful old Strawbs tune for the beginning of my most recent CMotW post, tonight I thought I'd post the whole song here, it seems to fit the occasion.

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BENEDICTUS

The wanderer has far to go
Humble must he constant be
Where the paths of wisdom are
Distant is the shadow of the setting sun.

Bless the daytime
Bless the night
Bless the sun which gives us light
Bless the thunder
Bless the rain
Bless all those who cause us pain.

Yellow stars may lead the way
All diversions lead astray
While his resolution holds
Fortune and good will will surely follow him.

Bless the free man
Bless the slave
Bless the hero in his grave
Bless the soldier
Bless the saint
Bless all those whose hearts grow faint.

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Thanks to all of you here for making my year a much better one.

Peace & goodwill,

OnM

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[> To rip off Bob Barker............. -- Rufus, 22:30:35 12/24/01 Mon

Please remember to spay or neuter all resident vampires.......also Happy Holidays!
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[> [> We will bring you the bruised and beaten body of Bob Barker! -- Slayrunt, 21:29:29 12/25/01 Tue

Sorry, I just love that line.

I hope everyone had a happy holiday/Christmas/winter soltice/please fill appropriate holiday name here.

Slayrunt
New Harry Potter book finished!!!! -- The Last Jack, 07:37:55 12/24/01 Mon

J.K. Rowling has just finished the final chapter of the latest Harry Potter book! Of course it will be many months before it is released, and if there are rewrites it could take longer, but at long last there is an end in sight!! This is the best present for Christmas for me, as I have been waiting for the new Harry Potter book ever since I finished the 4th (about 3 days after it had come out lol)

Merry Christmas everyone!

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[> Re: New Harry Potter book finished!!!! -- Wiccagrrl, 11:02:39 12/24/01 Mon

I heard this yesterday. This is such great news. I've become a huge Harry Potter fan, and I can't wait until Book Five is released.

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[> [> oooh, i think i just creamed my pants... -- pocky, 16:17:53 12/24/01 Mon

...and for that little obscenity, i apologize. ^_^'

i just happen to be a humongo Potter fan. yay!

~nathan~

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[> [> Re: New Harry Potter book finished!!!! -- Sol1056, 00:46:25 12/25/01 Tue

Well, as long as they actually spend time on rewrites this edition - the book 4 copy I got had a variety of typos. Aggravating, for the amt of money I'm spending I'd expect her & her editors to stay on top of things! ;P

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[> [> [> Hmmm. Canadian printing was flawless... -- Wisewoman, 08:44:52 12/25/01 Tue

...and I'm very hard to please when it comes to editing.

;o)

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[> [> [> [> Re: On a side note, there's going to be a Public HP Book Burning! -- Dedalus, 08:24:39 12/26/01 Wed

Yeah, I was just over at the Leaky Cauldron, and someone had posted a link to an article about some preacher in some podunk town sponsoring a public burning of Potter books. I hear, to add to the fun, that heavy metal rock CDs will be burned too. Sounds like a good time, so I call for a road trip and somebody bring some marshmellows!

The funny just keeps on coming as far as our favorite little bespectacled wizard is concerned. When asked if he had actually read the books or seen the movie, the preacher replied, "no," but seemed pretty certain they were evil nonetheless. Ah, book burnings! Those were the good old days, weren't they? Throw in a few swastikas, and it'll be just like Berlin in the thirties all over again!

On a lighter note, Pat Roberston has resigned from the Christian Coalition, and fundraising-wise, the group is reported to be in a "downward spiral." Also, there is a great article by a Christian from Scotland over at the LC blaming Christians for driving people away from Christianity and more or less making a mockery of it, and she even suggests if there are any real wizards or witches out there, that they should turn the people banning books into frogs. So it looks like Xander is not the only one interested in building an army of frog people.

Cheers,

Ded

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[> [> [> [> [> Re: Oh, just stake me now! The world is full of idiots!! -- WW, 13:41:21 12/26/01 Wed

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[> [> [> [> [> ugh, the ignorance and immaturity is sickening... -- pocky, 01:05:31 12/27/01 Thu

Honestly! You'd think these people who are so against books such as Harry Potter would at least have some kind of factual knowledge about them, aside from the fact that it's about a boy and his witchy world. It just shocks me how they could promote an act such as burning books and blatantly make themselves look ignorant by judging something they don't even know about!

And I find burning books an extremely offensive thing to do!!! ARGH!!! It's promoting ignorance!!!

Don't they realize that they need to buy the books to actually burn them? Hello--if anything, they're just helping the author rack in more money.

end rant.

~nathan~

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[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: ugh, the ignorance and immaturity is sickening... -- Dedalus, 08:25:47 12/27/01 Thu

Indeed, that's what I thought.

They do need to buy the books to burn them, thus supporting the Potter juggernaut. Still, logic obviously isn't exactly these people's best quality.

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[> Are you sure? -- Wisewoman, 09:43:11 12/25/01 Tue

The reports I've read in the news are that Rowling is saying she's finished of the final chapter of the series i.e. the final chapter of Book 7, the epilogue. She apparently has the plots of the final three books all sketched out and knows how it's all going to end, but I haven't yet seen a report that Book 5 has been completed.

Maybe I've missed that article?

;o)

The Nature of the Beasties (widespread spoilers) -- Darby, 08:54:43 12/24/01 Mon

Some thoughts about vampires...

BtVS started as a series of high-school metaphors, that much we all know. But why vampires? I think we've been given that explanation many times, embedded in the series (and AtS) itself.

The most overt explanation came in the Professor Walsh class in one of the episode teasers. It was all about the id, the Freudian sublevel of consciousness that's all about "want, need, have" (sound familiar?). Since it is the underlying driving structure of the psyche, it's no surprise that you can, if you try hard enough, connect everything the series deals with to it (you could do the same with "JAG," or "The Gilmore Girls"); but it turns out that you don't have to try hard at all.

Adolescence is all about dealing with the needs of oncoming adulthood, putting into place the governing superego (that's it, I'm done with Freud - he had some good ideas, but mostly he was an insightful fruitcake) that will try to keep us from grabbing our way out of society. Whether it's Buffy wanting a normal life, Willow wanting some "cool," or Xander wanting some inkling of his eventual destination, the stories all circle around the integration of what we want to take and how we pursue it within the constraints around us.

And that's where vampires come in. What are the demons? Well, they're soulless, we've been told (over and over again), but what does that mean? I think it means that they are all hunger and no empathy. There's no thought for the victims, something humans have, partly wired and partly learned. We got a glimpse, apparently, of Angel's demon when it emerged in Pylea, and it was feral, all bitey no thinkey, with just a hint of Angel's control within. Not all that different from Oz's werewolf. When a human's soul departs, what I think happens is that they lose their empathic behavior control, to have it replaced by a presence that is all about assuaging hunger. The personality of the person is there but no longer in control, and the demon is driving. The intellect is still present, though, enough to say, "Fine, we'll bite that, but not right this second," which keeps vampires (once they've fully woken up) from being the one-note beasties that werewolves are. The force of the demon's drive does seem to vary - this explains the variation in evil between Angel, Spike, Harmony and the other vamps we've gotten to know - and it does allow them some semblance of underworld social order. Or it could be that, beyond blood-hunger, the acts that would have brought pleasure to the human within are monstrously distorted in the vampire - that's interesting because it gives insight into Liam, and William, and even Willow.... Another possible explanation for the variation is that it makes plotting more interesting, and I'm just reverse- engineering here....

Spike becomes an interesting case, in that his hunger has been redirected by the chip... Can the new sources of relief become permanent substitutes, chip or no chip -? If Spike really wanted the chip to go away, maybe he needs Giles and his swinging watch more than the 3 Stooges...

Ever wonder why a secret government monster lab was being run by a PSYCHOLOGIST? (Yeah, yeah, she had to be teaching a class that Buffy and willow might take as freshmen) Again, we were told - the aim was "behavior modification," although toward what end is guesswork. But, as we're finding out with Spike, in a disturbingly Zen way, you are what you do. How has Spike's behavior been modified? It seems to be a simple "I, Robot" control - don't hurt people. How does a chip buried in a demon's brain decide which one of the beings around it are people? The simplest answer is that it doesn't - it lets SPIKE decide 1) if this being is human, and 2) if he intends to harm it. Ultimately, HE decides who he can hit, within simple chip parameters. It makes more sense - the chip is supposedly from the technological world, and giving it the ability to differentiate between humans and demons is way magical.

There are implications here. Tara may be part demon after all - the "litmus test" was that Spike was hurt by the chip when he struck her, but that could be because he was CONVINCED that she was human. And, more to the point of current discussion, is Buffy really "wrong," or is it Spike? There has been an arc to Spike's journey, from interest through infatuation through professed love into what appears to be, for Spike, true love. With Drusilla, it has been established that Spike is a devoted lover, but can be both caring and careless, flippantly and petulantly abusive. Dru's reactions brought him around to apologies, but he hardly seemed to recognize what he was doing before that. Love can entail rationalizations of "this will hurt me more than it will you," or "this is just for your own good," or "I don't really mean it," and abusers (and does any one really think that Spike is NOT an abusive lover??) can ignore inflicted pain beyond what many people would think conscionable. Spike no longer really believes that he can really hurt Buffy - there were hints of that in "Fool for Love" (and results would seem to back him up on this) - THAT'S why the chip doesn't work on her anymore. Disturbingly, he might even be able to kill her, if he becomes convinced that she's more hurt being alive (the chip could even "push" him that way) in this glittering world.

At some point, I want to do a follow-up on the beasties of Angel's world, who seem to work under somewhat different rules, but this is enough for now...

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[> "Does anyone think Spike IS NOT an Abusive Lover?" -- Spike Lover, 14:04:58 12/24/01 Mon

Me. (Holds up hand.) I don't think Spike is an abusive lover. Nor did I think he was a sick stalker. Nor did I think that Dru was abusive to him. Nor do I think they had a sick, abusive relationship. (This does not mean that they were not into S & M, but that is different altogether.)

I think if I thought Spike was an abusive lover, I would not want him to be paired up with anyone. As it is, I want him to be paired up with the best possible mate in the world. (But I will settle for Buffy, since he seems to want her.)

What is an abusive relationship to you? In simplistic terms, an abusive relationship is where one person is physically beating up on the other, and this behavior is "enabled" by the other person. Did Spike and Dru have this? No. Did Harm & Spike have this? No. Do Spike & Buffy have this? Maybe. There is a tendency for Buffy to beat on Spike, to take her frustrations out on him, but although she behaves this way, they are missing the co-dependent link of - him leaving her, and her apologizing to him, promising it will be better, begging him to come back to her, etc. Also, she does not blame him for her bad behavior yet. It certainly had the potential to become abusive until recently when in "Smashed", Spike is suddenly able to hit her back, and in "Wrecked" when he tells her that she has got to start treating him better or he will bite her.

The other big no-no in abusive relationships is mental abuse. One person forfeits their self-esteem because the other person is constantly telling them that they don't measure up. It creates a kind of dependency because the weaker party is convinced that they can not make it without the abuser. They will fail or die if they leave, and this makes them even more dependent on the abuser. (I have been in this situation.)

Did Dru and Spike have this? NO. Did Spike and Harm have this? Not so much. They were a mis- match, relationship of convenience, and I think that Spike (like me and other audience members) found Harm very annoying. And it is easy to put down what annoys you. Harm, however, recognized that Spike was putting her down and had moved to the self-help books and was working to be independent of him. But even then, when she left (the first and second time) he did not latch onto her like an abuser would.

Do Buffy and Spike have this sort of relationship? Er- sort of. Buffy is always putting Spike down. He is a thing. He is beneath her. (The real question is if he left her, would she pursue him? We will have to wait and see.) But again, in "Wrecked" he has stated that he is not going to take it anymore.

So, I guess I would say that although Spike is not an abusive lover in my opinion, Buffy again seems like she could very easily become an abuser in a relationship if Spike allows it.

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[> [> Okay, maybe I've rethought that part... -- Darby, 20:01:28 12/25/01 Tue

Spike Lover, although I'd have to say that the alias exhibits some bias, I also have to say that some of what you've said has swayed me. That, and my wife pointing out that the Spike / Dru exchanges we were shown were not all that different from exchanges we've had. I don't quite buy the extent of the definition you've given (I'm not sure that enabling is a *necessary* part of the process, or the on- and-off nature either), but I will say that my suggestion was overextended as well. And I'm no longer sure how I would label the current B/S relationship.

I stand by the other stuff, though - unless someone can shake me on that...

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[> Interesting, but a quibble... -- Tanker, 14:06:36 12/24/01 Mon

Spike felt pain when he attacked the human muggers in "Smashed," who he thought were demons. Therefore, the chip works at least partially independently. If Spike swings at someone without intending to actually hit them (as in FFL), the chip doesn't activate. But if he actually hits or intends to hit, and the target is human, it activates, whether or not Spike knows that they are human.

The way the chip works has been shown so inconsistently that I don't think it can be used as evidence for anything.

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[> Re: The Nature of the Beasties (widespread spoilers) -- Gwyn, 18:23:59 12/25/01 Tue

I work in behaviour management so the question of what the chip does or does not do to Spike interests me. Behaviour modification, when working with people who hurt others, particularly when there is no real empathy for those that might be hurt on the part of the perpetrator, requires that some extrinsic motivator is put in place to do the required behaviour. In Spike's case,to refrain from killing humans. Spike has no empathy for humanity in general, being a vampire who saw them as a food supply, so the Initiative would have chipped him to motivate him with an aversive stimulus. Try to hurt people, get zapped. This is pretty effective use of aversive stimuli in Spike's case but the use of such aversive therapies are not looked on favourably in behaviour analysis generally today as it is morally questionable, even under controlled conditions. This is not to say that it is never used.

The chip does not make Spike choose to do good. It simply stops him from one evil action, physical violence towards humans. He could, and does, continue to do other questionable stuff, like petty stealing. So he can still choose or not choose to do other immoral acts, and he has the free will to choose or not to do good. He is still, broadly speaking, able to access the broad range of moral and immoral acts that you and I might be able to, independent of what most of us do not do as well,physically attack people.

Since he still has a whole range of moral fibre he can develop I think he deserves a pat on the back for not doing a whole range of other nasty things that unchipped beings in and out of the Buffyverse do. He frequents a sleazy demon underworld still and he is not, as far as we know, into a lot of the crime that must be going on in it, drug dealing for example. He kills demons and vampires, but so does Buffy, and lately, he seems to be doing it in the right contexts. Except for that one incident in Wrecked where the chip kicked in and stopped him biting the girl to prove he was still not housebroken, we have not seen consistent lapses. Even that was to be expected given that research in behaviour analysis tells us that progress is always two steps forward, one step back.

He deserves a pat on the back for choosing to do good on a regular basis for some time now. What the chip may be doing here is, by allowing him to cease to be a threat to the human world, he was able to enter to gain entry to that world in his contact with the Scoobies and Buffy, so that he could find an intrinsic motivator to do good. In his case, love of Buffy, and to a lesser extent Dawn. Love, in his case, is a very powerful intrinsic motivator because, for the most part, until Buffy succumbed to lust in Smashed, he had very little positive reinforcement to do anything good. Just that one kiss in Intervention for undergoing unbelievable torture. The kiss at the end of the musical gave him hope that he might find his love returned and Smashed raised those hopes even higher, but all the major decisions to make a positive moral choice, like protecting Dawn in the Gift, were done without expectation of his love being rewarded. Since, most of us,operate on extrinsic motivation on a daily basis, I'd say Spike, even with the odd lapse, is well on the way to rehabilitation! And I, for one, am rooting for him!

Gwyn

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[> [> Re: The Nature of the Beasties (widespread spoilers) -- simon A., 16:43:38 12/27/01 Thu

I have slowly come to the conclusion that the chip does MORE than simple aversion therapy, it's just that that's the only function that is obvious. I think that it has some more subtle functioning, a "synthetic superego" that seems to slowly grant Spike the functional equivalent of a Whedonverse "soul." I am also willing to grant the writers a large degree of inconsistancy between the suddeness of Angel's change and the gradualness of Spikes change. Perhaps it just takes a while for the chips neural net to effect spike. This would explain why when he was freshly chipped, he was throwing everyone around the Initiave during his escape. And to what extent is Spike's lingering evil due to him trying to continue to do things that used to be fun. Haven't we all woken up discovered that something that we were doing just wasn't fun anymore?

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[> [> [> Re: The Nature of the Beasties (widespread spoilers) -- Gwyn, 13:00:46 12/28/01 Fri

I think that the idea that the chip is anything more than aversion therapy would be a pretty depressing comment on the human condition for the show to make. While Spike is a vampire he is a vehicle for commenting on the aspects of the human condition he embodies, and even the most rabid supporter of behaviour analysis and behaviour modification would not make the claim that stimulus for aversive therapy does anything more than create the conditons for the subject to reconnect with a quality of life that the anti-social behaviour gets in the way of.

I think being "chipped" in Spike's case allows him to get beyond the idea that the only way he can feel good about himself is through doing evil. He hates the chip, at least initially, because it stops him being the Big Bad, cuts his identity off at the knees so to speak. For a while he wallows in self-pity and is pretty comic and pathetic. Once he starts to find some purpose through helping Buffy and fighting vampires and demons some of that whining starts to fall away and he begins to rebuild some sort of identity that incorporates the conditions the chip sets up. I think we can see how far he has come in working with the chip when he says in Smashed, after Andrew has checked the chip is still working, "Nothing wrong with me. Something wrong with her." This is an amazing acceptance on Spike's part of his current chipped condition! This is not to say that he wouldn't love to have total freedom of ego back, who wouldn't? But, as his attempt to bite the girl in this episode shows, it is lucky he doesn't as he still has a way to go before he is ready for it. I'm hanging out to see when that will be but the fact that the chip only sets the ground rules for behaviour change by preventing one behaviour and one behaviour only,and does nothing more than that, is shown very clearly by what Spike does when he finds out it does not work against Buffy.

He confronts her in the alley to lord it over her that he can hit her, in essence to assert his equality with her, to point out a pretty significant power shift in their relationship. The irony is that he thinks it is about showing her that he is not house broken, that he is still Bad, but the choice he makes when he fights her shows that he has not reverted to that at all. He gets to show her that this is who he is, with regard to her, without the chip. Since Buffy has always thought that the only thing stopping Spike from killing was the chip, at least in her case she can no longer claim this. Does he try to kill her? No he does not. Welcome to a behaviour modificatin success story, or at least to the first sign that we can start to think about incremental withdrawal of the aversive stimulus! At least in Buffy's case, Spike does not need the chip to prevent him killing her. He chooses, freely, not to do it. And while the chip allowed him to make the moral journey that brought him to that point, it has nothing to do with the free choice he makes here. That choice amongst other things, comes from his love for her..er...but that is another post. What we do know now is that Spike, with regard to Buffy, no longer needs the chip.

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[> [> [> [> Re: The Nature of the Beasties (widespread spoilers) -- dsf, 13:15:32 12/28/01 Fri

>I think we can see how far he has come in working with the chip when he says in Smashed, after Andrew has checked the chip is still working, "Nothing wrong with me. Something wrong with her." This is an amazing acceptance on Spike's part of his current chipped condition!<

Yes -- an apparently unconscious admission of what he considers "right" for himself. And, for that matter, of what's right for Buffy: being human. Would he even consider turning her, now that he could (assuming he didn't get dusted trying)? He said he wouldn't let them kill an imperfect Buffy. But would he make Buffy less herself in order to bring her closer to him? I don't think so.

dsf

BtVS Christmas story -- matching mole, 18:58:52 12/24/01 Mon

This is a break in the Shadows at the Bottom of the Sea Story to indulge myself in mawkish sentimentality and cheap humour. Happy Holidays of whatever sort you wish and I look forward to a new year of yummy philosophy.

Please forgive the rushed ending and any typos.

It was the day before Christmas in Sunnydale. The bright sunshine of morning had given way to dark clouds and chill breezes. Still folk scurried from one high end specialty shop to the next in good cheer. This means snow they said to one another. A white Christmas. And they completely ignored their wet socks. Even the occasional collision of their automobiles did not dampen their seasonal enthusiasm. California drivers, they exclaimed. What do we know about winter driving?
In the midst of Sunnydale where the snow fell the thickest and the shoppers were the cheeriest was the magic shop. Perhaps the most high end and most specialized of all the shops in this affluent city. Despite its expensive and specialized nature this ship did a booming business for Sunnydale was not just your average outrageously expensive coastal Californian town. It was on the Hellmouth and all things magical were in great demand. Witches bought rare ingredients for the members of their covens. Seekers of arcane knowledge bought books of arcane knowledge. Those who would be lovers bought love spells. Demons bought long lost talismans that would further their plans both sinister and benign.
This magic shop belonged to an ex-vengeance demon named Anya. Because of her demonic past I trust she will forgive my familiarity in addressing by what we must ironically refer to as her Christian name. She now took the form of a beautiful young woman with hair that changed color and length frequently. Of late life had been very good to her yet she was still not happy.
Recently, her absentee partner, Mr. Giles had perished under mysterious circumstances in England. Something about being hit by a bus while cleaning his glasses. Now she held exclusive control of the store. After some initial hesitation her suitor, a Mr. Xander Harris had proposed. Although it had appeared, on more than one occasion, as if he might like to renege on their agreement he had been persuaded to see the matter in the same light as herself. A short communication from her lawyer containing the words 'breach of promise' had been more than sufficient.
Her financial and personal life seemed secure but her seasonal sales were not as high as estimated. Her suppliers hadn't come through with requested items. At least two dozen potential customers had requested a particular voodoo doll and had ended up going home disappointed. This disappointed Anya in turn and she took this out on her staff.
A new order had arrived early that morning and she had eagerly conscripted her friends to help with the unloading. It had taken all day with frequent interruptions for customers. By 4 PM there was mutiny in the ranks.
"Can't we stop now?" Miss Willow Rosenberg was pulling jars of newt eyes out of a box and stacking them on a very high shelf. "My arms are getting tired. I'm liable to drop something again." She looked down at the bottom of the ladder where a few fragments of an earlier jar lay in a puddle.
"Did you say you dropped something?" Anya quickly crossed the shop. "That'll be coming out of your wages Ms. Rosenberg."
"But you're not paying us anything An." Her fiance, Mr. Harris was arranging the wands in order of length on the next row of shelves over. "Ow!"
The later exclamation was in response to a swift blow to his stomach from his bride to be. "And that's precisely how much you're worth. Someone has to pay for the broken merchandise. It's not my fault you're clumsy."
"If you'd let me use magic I could lift all this stuff up there twice as fast-- Ow!" Miss Rosenberg grabbed her thigh and almost fell off the ladder. Anya had poked her with the very long stick that was in the shopkeeper's hand through out the day. And it was not for the first time that day either.
"No magic for you." Anya retracted her telescoping stick and glared at the red-haired witch.
"She's right Will. You did take the pledge." Mr. Harris cast a hasty glance at his beloved as he did so to make sure he was out of striking range should she manage to take umbrage at his statement.
"O.K., O.K. I guess you're right. But I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this."
"I don't know why not? What else have you got to do? You're all alone now that Tara has left you. And left me with one less assistant."
Miss Rosenberg burst into tears.
"Now look what you've done." Mr. Harris headed around the shelf to comfort Miss Rosenberg. "There, there Will. It'll be alright. She didn't mean it."
"I most certainly did mean it. And why aren't you still working? Because one of you stops does the other have to as well? I'm waiting for an answer."
Mr. Harris stopped in his tracks at the foot of the ladder, looking indecisively first at his sobbing friend and then at his irate fiancee. He appeared unable to act.
"You know what? This blows." A young woman came up the steps from the basement. "The mummy hand got loose again and it took me half an hour to get it back in its box." This was Miss Dawn Summers, the younger sister of Miss Buffy Summers, the erstwhile leader of a stalwart company of demon hunters that often met at the magic shop. Mr. Harris and Miss Rosenberg were her most senior and trusted aids.
"What the hell is going on here?" the younger Miss Summers continued, viewing the distraught Miss Rosenberg and the almost equally distraught Mr. Harris. "What have you been doing to them Anya?"
"No more than they deserve, the layabouts."
"I think that this is enough for today." Miss Summers crossed her arms and surveyed the shopkeeper with an expression of determination. "It's Christmas Eve. We should be at home with our families."
"Your family is out patrolling with Spike." Anya referred to the aforementioned elder Miss Summers and her companion, a rather roguish vampire with a penchant for colourful nicknames.
"She'll be home soon. And no one else is going to come and buy any of this stuff for tomorrow."
"But we need to get everything ready for the Boxing Day sale." Anya started to extend her very long stick again.
"Boxing Day?" The other three looked at her in puzzlement.
"Oh, right. Sorry. I forgot that I'm an American now. Back to work."
"Sorry An." Mr. Harris stepped away from the ladder and looked her in the eyes. "I think she's right. It's time to call it quits." From the ladder a teary-eyed Miss Rosenberg nodded her agreement.
"Fine." Anya pouted in an aggravating manner that she had perfected over the past year. "But I want you all in here two hours before opening the day after Christmas so we can finish this up."
"Thank you." Mr. Harris helped Miss Rosenberg off the ladder. Young Miss Summers joined them and they headed for the door. Just as they were about to exit Mr. Harris turned back. "Aren't you coming An?"
"Some of us have work to do." Dismissing them from her mind Anya turned to her work.

Several hours later she was disturbed by a sound at the door. As the shop was long since closed she reacted cautiously, approaching the door slowly with a cross, stake, and bottle of holy water in hand. Flinging it open she was confronted with a horrific sight. It was her former partner, the deceased Mr. Giles. And both sight and stench confirmed his none to recent demise. His flesh was putrid with decay and his once elegant tweeds were stained with the soil of the grave. Great manacles were wrapped around his legs and arms.
"Beware!" The undead Giles had a voice considerably inferior to that of his living self but it still retained a highly evocative quality. "Beware!"
"Oh my god!" said Anya as she dropped her holy water.
"Beware," repeated Giles, somewhat unnecessarily.
"What do you want?"
"Beware."
"Am I going to be audited?"
The zombie took off his glasses and began to clean them. "Do you think I'd arise from the dead, break the chains holding me in my coffin, and make my way to America to warn you about an audit?"
"Why were you chained in your coffin?"
"The Watcher's Council. They are very thorough."
"Well then, what about it? I'm a busy young shopkeeper. I appreciate this rising from beyond the grave and all but time is money."
"You will be visited by three ghosts this night." Mr. Giles voice was taking on an increasingly impressive timbre.
"Three more? Or three counting you?"
"I'm not a ghost. I am a zombie. As I said you will be visited by three ghosts. To teach you the true meaning of Christmas so that your behavior will be somewhat less appalling in the future. Beware! Beware!" Mr. Giles stumbled off into the night.
Anya shut the door and returned to her ledger. Despite all her efforts she could not keep her mind on the task at hand. The words of Mr. Giles returned to haunt her again and again.
"Time for bed," she said eventually and, carefully locking the shop, she headed for home. The dark streets of Sunnydale were deserted with even the demons dreaming of dark gifts beneath their trees of horror. The apartment was empty as well. A note from Mr. Harris informed her that he was spending the night at the Summers' residence. To weary to care she flung herself into bed and fell into a dreamless sleep.
When she awoke moonlight was pouring into the apartment through her bedroom window. For a minute all was still. Then the sounds of barbaric rhythms became faintly audible, gradually growing louder. A movement caught her eye. A lithe figure flashed into the light and then back into the shadow.
Anya sat up in bed, too scared to make a sound. The figure leaped into the moonlight again and gyrated wildly, moving in concert with the wild music. It was a young woman, vaguely resembling Anya's friend, the elder Miss Summers. Like that champion of justice this woman was young and beautiful with hair of gold and graceful features. Unlike the chaste and moral Miss Summers this creature wore clothing of a scandalously revealing nature. Her faultlessly endowed figure was displayed for all to see. Other shadowy forms gyrated half-seen in the background.
"Who are you?" Anya found her voice at last. "I...I, I. Am. The Ghost of Christmas Past." The ghost sang the words as if they were some sort of incantation. With a pretty heavy beat behind them. "Here to show you what was." With one fluid motion she vaulted onto the bed and grasped Anya by the hand. The shopkeeper was pulled upright. Anya found herself standing in the middle of a forest of giant trees. Mist swirled over her head among the tree trunks. She was standing at the edge of a trail.
"Watch." The voice of the ghost came from far above. Anya looked up and saw the curvaceous spirit leaping from branch to branch, stopping briefly to drink from the soda she held in her hand.

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[> BtVS Christmas story (2) -- matching mole, 19:01:24 12/24/01 Mon

Someone was coming up the trail. Anya stepped back behind a bush. A young couple clad in the garb of medieval peasants were approaching. Frequently they darted angry glances at one another but did not speak. They passed her and continued on their way. Anya thought that they looked like people she had met in the past but couldn't quite remember who they were.
A minute later she heard the sound of someone else approaching. Two people were talking and one of them sounded very familiar. It was a woman and, after a minute, Anya realized that she sounded exactly herself in her demon days.
Then they appeared. It was Anya in her younger days with her brow so charmingly ridged and furrowed and her eyes gleaming with the promise of vengeance. At her side stalked a mighty demon. Muscles bulged beneath its hide of scale and fur, talons gleamed razor sharp on every finger, great spikes waved at the tip of a magnificent tail. Most striking of all were his eyes which shone with ferocity, candor, and a pitiless intelligence. "I don't see why you have to track down every jilted woman who walks through this forest, An." Although his voice was rich in timbre, suggesting both the magnificence and the terror of this wild place, his tone was remarkably suggestive of that of Mr. Harris.
"Because, Rondor, I'm a vengeance demon. That's what I do."
"Well, sure An. I didn't mean to imply that you should give it up. Become a stay at home demon or anything. But every single one? And on Christmas?"
"Why should we care about Christmas? It's a Christian holiday." Anyanka (for that was her demon name) shuddered.
"Well the solstice then. Or whatever you want to call it. It's the time of year to be relaxing and enjoying the finer things in life such as the company of your favourite fellow-demons."
"That girl won't avenge herself you know. She'll just sit there and spinelessly brood about his unfaithful ways until one or the other of them catches the plague. That could take years."
"Fine. Avenge away. But can't it wait until after Chris... er, the solstice? If you get behind schedule I could always pop round and eat him myself."
"You just wouldn't do it right, Rondor." Her voice was affectionate but she was clearly not really paying much attention. "And then I'd lose my bonus as top vengeance taker on this entire plane. I'm set to take it for the thirty seventh year running."
"Well in that case," Rondor stopped walking. "If your bonus is more important than Christmas we can each enjoy one of them. Alone." He turned and headed back the way he had come.
Anyanka stopped as well and looked at the retreating form of her demon paramour. "Go after him." Anya breathed from behind her bush. Anyanka didn't move. After a long moment she turned and continued up the trail after the couple.
"Rondor was great, wasn't he?" The Ghost of Christmas past leaped down from a tree and landed amidst a profusion of fireworks. "I'll bet he rocked your world."
Anya nodded staring after the retreating form of her demon self. "Come back."
"She can't hear you. Not even if you scream. No taking back the past." The Ghost leapt into the air and an even more vigorous pyrotechnic display commenced. When it subsided Anya found herself lying back in her bed. "I'm probably supposed to think that was all a dream." She pulled a leaf from her hair. "Now there's mud all over the blanket. At least I hope that it's mud."
There was an enormous thud at the end of the bed and the whole room shook. Anya raised her eyes from contemplating the ruin of the bedclothes and screamed. A great squat figure crouched on the far side of the room. It wore a vest and was consulting a pocket watch. It was white and furry with immense hindquarters, long ears, and a pink nose. Watery eyes regarded the shopkeeper with mild alarm.
"Oh my stars! A huge bunny!" She felt that her heart would stop.
The rabbit coughed, a small polite cough. "I fear you suffer under a misapprehension. I am not a rabbit. Merely a superficial resemblance. I am the Ghost of Christmas present. Observe!" The ghost rather melodramatically stuck a forepaw through the top of a dresser as a demonstration.
"Well I suppose that's alright then." Anya was somewhat reassured. Ghosts she could handle. Some of her best friends had been ghosts. But bunnies!
"And I see we are running late. A few seconds more and we will be out of my purview. Let us be on our way." A forepaw, suddenly substantial, grasped Anya's arm and a sudden leap carried them out of the apartment and high into the sky. Down they came, light as a feather, on the front yard of the Summer's house.
"Let's take a look inside, shall we?"
"They'll all be asleep." Anya felt a curious reluctance to approach the window.
"You would think so." The ghost consulted his watch again. "But the present is a somewhat flexible concept. This is actually three hours ago."
"In the past you mean."
"Not according to the rules. As the past and yet to come are essentially infinite in scope I have been allowed a little leeway. Stop quibbling and take a look."
Anya put her face up next to the glass. There was her fiance, Mr. Harris and both Miss Summers, the elder and the younger. Also Miss Rosenberg and that rascally fellow known only as Spike. Mr. Harris and the Miss Summers were gleefully playing some sort of game while Miss Rosenberg and Spike watched from opposite sides of the room.
"Why aren't they playing?" Anya turned to the ghost.
The ghost wrinkled its nose. "They both pine for what they want and have not. The love of the one they desire most."
"Oh you mean Buffy and Tara. Well that's no excuse for not joining in the party spirit."
Inside the game had apparently reached its end amid general merriment.
"Where's Anya?" asked the elder Miss Summers as if just now noticing her absence.
"She had to work late." Mr. Harris smiled as he thought of his beloved.
"I don't know what you see in her Xander." Willow spoke up from the corner. "She's bossy and self-absorbed and always says things at the most inappropriate moments."
"That's no way to talk, Red." The vampire stepped forward so the light could play off his cheekbones. "It's Christmas. Show some charity." He glanced at the elder Miss Summers, a quick look but full of feeling. She ignored him.
"She's my girl, Will. And she's not so bad. She has a good heart under everything."
"You're a lot more charitable than I would be." The elder Miss Summers shot a brief glance full of ire at the vampire.
"Hey. Like Spike said. It's Christmas." The younger Miss Summers raised her glass in a toast. "To Anya." The others followed suit.
"Time to go," said the ghost and leaped again, pulling Anya behind him.
They landed at the window of a small apartment. A young woman sat alone inside.
"Hey, that's Tara." Anya moved closer to the glass.
The young woman sat silent and motionless, a book lying unread in her lap. As Anya watched a tear formed in her eye. Tara's face held a quiet, sad beauty. After a minute she began to sing. It wasn't a song that Anya had ever heard before but she presumed it had something to do with Christmas. "And what lesson do I take from this?" Anya tried to keep the catch out of her voice but failed.
"An impatient creature aren't you? The young woman singing her heart out and you want to cut to the chase. Very well. Many of your friends share the same sorrow. They love someone they cannot be with. Yet they take solace in the season. You, who have what they so fervently wish for in Mr. Harris, do not value it as highly as the cold cash in your till."
"Will they achieve their wishes spirit? Will they find happiness?" Anya felt something strange stirring inside her.
"This one may be leaving. But she is strong."
"What of the ones that remain?"
"I see nothing but sorrow."
"Say it isn't so, spirit."
The ghost grabbed her arm again. "I thought you were in a hurry." It leapt high again, soaring into the cold dark sky. Then it released her and she fell, rushing back toward the earth.
To land in her bed once again. Already a tall, cloaked figure was waiting for her.
"You're late." It spoke in a voice from beyond the grave. "The rabbit is so unreliable."
Anya shot up in bed. "He lied to me. I knew he was a bunny!"
"Well if you've quite gotten that out of your system." The figure gestured with an immense scythe. "I am the Ghost of Christmas yet to come." Lightning flashed just outside the window illuminating the room as bright as day and revealing the hammer lashed to the ghost's weapon. "Let's rock and roll."
Anya found herself standing on the street outside of her magic shop. A few of the upstanding citizens of Sunnydale were out and about as well. But no more did they wear bright colours and flattering styles. Everyone wore clothing of the plainest and most severe nature. Earth tones for everyone. Lunch boxes and tools were in every hand. The men had unkempt beards and the women unshaved legs. She turned to the window of her office with a shudder and then jumped back in utter horror. The potions and spells had been replaced with moldy potatoes and old copies of Das Kapital.
"Can this be?" Anya clutched at her chest. She felt that she might swoon.
The ghost laughed and threw back its cloak, revealing clothing of bright red underneath it. It swept the folds of cloth around her and she found herself in the Sunnydale cemetery.
"Why are we here?" Anya felt relieved at being away from the travesty her shop had become.
The spirit pointed at a fenced off section of the grounds. A sign above the entrance said 'Enemies of the People'. The ghost went inside and gestured for her to follow. It stopped at an open grave with a new headstone. "Whose grave is that, spirit?" she asked. There was no answer other than the hammer and sickle swinging around and knocking her into the hole. Wiping the mud out of her eyes, Anya found herself back in her room. It was just getting light out.
"I'll bet it's still Christmas day and I've got to go and save the world from socialism. Spend, spend, spend." Anya got out of bed and headed for the shower.
An hour later she was ringing on the door of the Summers' house with fistfuls of cash.
"Here's something for a week in magic rehab Willow.
"Six months in therapy for Buffy.
"A year's membership in a gym for my darling so he can look nice for me.
"Tara gets a magic free Willow. Will you stop by and tell her for me, Dawn?
"Dawn gets a car! It's out front.
"And Spike gets an annual checkup in perpetuity on his chip so that he doesn't turn evil and kill us all."
"God bless us, everyone." Spike headed for the kitchen to get some blood.

The End

Wishing you and yours the best of the season. the mole

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[> [> Re: Ho Ho Ho! -- MrDave, 22:14:17 12/24/01 Mon

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[> [> LOL, I'm glad I saved this for Christmas morning! -- Wisewoman, 09:14:13 12/25/01 Tue

Great stuff, mole!

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[> [> hmmm... -- Diagnoztix, 16:31:01 12/25/01 Tue

It's very festive, in a buffy sort of way - but Giles being run over by a bus...

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[> [> [> Re: hmmm... -- CW, 08:25:55 12/26/01 Wed

It was a double-decker bus loaded with tourists from California, no doubt!

Willow's inner thoughts -- Copper, 13:36:37 12/25/01 Tue

This may have already been discussed, but I don't remember seeing it.
Anyway, I was just watching OMWF again and was made further aware of the fact that Willow doesn't really sing. Now, this may be because she can't carry a tune. However, it also may be that her power (which is mentioned at the end by the Demon) helped her suppress her inner feelings. Other than by her reactions to the other songs, we don't really know what she is feeling; what is disturbing her; what her worries are.

Is she so far gone into denial of having problems that she does not even have anything to articulate to the others at that point?

Is she becoming less human every time she uses magic?

Maybe Wrecked really was a wakeup call.

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[> Re: Willow's inner thoughts -- Shul, 12:47:16 12/27/01 Thu

My Vote is she cant carry a tune.
It happens to the best of us.
But its all just speculation at this point.

Buffy spinoffs -- Diagnoztix, 17:13:41 12/25/01 Tue

Anyone got any info on the Buffy spinoffs which are being talked about? Will 'Ripper' cover the time before BTVS or after Giles leaving? I've heard it may be filmed in England but is it set there? (Cool if it is - if they stick to exact locations; I live in Oxford!)Or will it have little to do with BTVS at all? (oh well - I'm just interested by the possibilities - anything's better than Inspector Morse...)

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[> There may be a clue... -- Darby, 20:16:45 12/25/01 Tue

When Giles returned, there was a discussion he had with Buffy about making a new friend ("which I'd thought was a physical impossibility at my age," or some such) which sounded very much like something very plotty had happened to him - maybe it'll turn out to be like the "lost" Buffy-Angel meeting, but I suspect it was a referral to the first episode of "Ripper." Just a guess, of course.

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[> Re: Buffy spinoffs -- LoriAnn, 03:54:05 12/26/01 Wed

Didn't JW say "Ripper" would be an anthology series? I may be wrong, but I got the impression that Giles was going to do the donut around standalone episodes, not that "Ripper" would tell the story of Ripper, but that Ripper would tell stories.

"Primeval speculation-Spike's subconscious question for the board.... -- AurraSing, 18:27:50 12/25/01 Tue

Some blather on a cool Christmas night.........
Happened to catch the tail end of "Primeval" tonight as I finished cleaning up after the traditional roast-beast meal and I heard something that really gave me pause.
In a voice-over segment showing Buffy,Riley and the Scoobies battling to exit the Initiative's base and the many soldiers dying there,a goverment official calls the whole experiment of subverting demons to help fight their underworld brothers and be used in military operations a failure.

"Demons cannot be harnessed,cannot be controlled."

Now granted Adam was a league above your ordinary class of demon,but did he not have a controlling ship ala Spike?? Did all the demons shown in the complex originate off-base or were some of them bearing chips ?
What does this say about how well the chip in Spike's head has been working up until now? Does Spike have one of the few chips that really worked,or is there more behind it?
One clue I think to this puzzle shows up in the episode that followed,namely "Restless".
Not only was Spike shown to be a Watcher in training in Xander's dream (and why would Xander be that jealous of Spike at this point,since all the Scoobs supposedly regarded him as pitiful but still very evil at this point in time???) but in Giles' dream Spike was posing for pictures for the press.I will emphasise the "posing" part,since I am becoming to believe more and more that most of Spike's evil nature is a pose.He may talk the talk,but I doubt he can really walk the walk anymore.Oh yeah,he still has a nasty demon in him,but by nature he is not really a killer of humans....anyone who could hang around a sweet young thing like Dawn as much as Spike has and not go crazy with frustration over his inability to bite her is not truly evil or he deals with it on a level most of us cannot contemplate in our subconscious.(look how he had to give himself a pep talk in "Smashed" before he tried to bite the girl-that was pititful,it was......)
Does Spike's chip work better that the norm because deep-down he really does not want to kill,but has been killing because it was the way to earn the respect of Dru,Darla and Angelus ?? Kill or be killed as a weak specimen of a vamp ??
Which seemed more important to him-Dru's love or the need to kill?? I would have to say Dru's love,which is very odd when you are a souless demon,don't you think?

Any thoughts??

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[> Re: "Primeval speculation-Spike's subconscious question for the board.... -- Rufus, 05:24:59 12/26/01 Wed

It sure would be a great scape-goat, this chip that makes Spike act against his evil nature. It gives him an excuse to evolve as a character without too much risk to his ego. Spike's identity for many years has been that of the Big Bad, a vampire that is feared by humans, a killer of Slayers. That is hard to give up when all you knew before was the taunts of supposed friends. He wanted to chuck all of who he was as it got him nothing. There was no incentive to remain a sensitive man, there was certainly no womanly attention for it at that time. Becoming a vampire made him feel alive because for the first time he got attention, unfortunately for doing the type of things that would have horrified his former self. But as a vampire he is trapped. Vampires are competative loners that fight amongst themselves...he doesn't respect many of his fellow demons, they in fact are a club he doesn't really want to belong to but was stuck with. The chip affords a unique opportunity, a chance at becoming part of a group he respects, and hopefully win the love of the woman he admired above all others. If it doesn't work out he could work around the parameters of the chip and do evil again. Forced to do good until his chains no longer restrict. The problem with the chip excuse is that Buffy now knows it no longer works with her....and Spike has let the kittens out of the bag in respect to his love for Buffy. The chip is now less important than what he does next now that he has to act and take responsibility for the next things he does. The pressure is on, the incentive (love from Buffy) great. So, is Spike still evil, did the chip let out that humanity that had been imprisoned by his ego and demon? If that's what happened can he ever go back to what he was?
I see Spike as a character that has started to evolve..through unforseen circumstances, he has been given the chance to become the man he never became in life. Will he become a real live boy? Or will he just become an authentic being, no longer hampered by his insecurities?

A Joss article, A major spoiler? and Buffy Vs. Dracula -- darrenK, 20:17:59 12/25/01 Tue

"The thing is, I like my evil like I like my men:evil..."
Buffy quote from Pangs, Season 4

There's a new article on the Buffy DVD's over at Zap2it.

http://tv.zap2it.com/news/tvnewsdaily.html?22729

And besides talking about the DVD commentary (can't wait!) it also drops a small bomb, something that gives a hint as to the nature of the second half of the season.

Joss says that Riley is coming back...

The exact quote:

This should answer the question of what happened to Riley in the jungle, whether a demon or something squished him. "Not squished," says Whedon. "Something rather more dramatic happened to him."

Well, over at the Spoiler Slayer there has been some speculation recently that Riley would return as a vampire and this quote does everything short of confirming this.

And it doesn't seem like any accident that tonights Buffy episode was Buffy vs. Dracula, just to remind us that Buffy has always had thing for vampires, her power has always been rooted in darkness (rather than just now that she's died and no longer sets off Spike's chip)and Riley was hopelessly out of his league as a good guy.

It also makes the Hush all that more poignant. I recently wrote on this board that Hush and Once More with Feeling were the two sides of the same coin.

Hush was where Buffy and Riley had their first kiss.

Does anybody remember any Riley stuff from Restless? I don't,but at this point Season 4 is like a reference text for Season 6.

It had completely escaped me that Buffy had wanted to find out more about the other Slayers, where the Slayer comes from and what she is. She never did find those things out.

And it just so happens that in the year after that Joss works on two projects about other slayers and the origins of the Slayer––Fray and Tales of the Slayer.
Hmm...

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[> Another quote: SPOILER -- LoriAnn, 04:01:50 12/26/01 Wed

JW is also quoted as having said, "We have him doing an episode for us after Christmas. We're really excited."
Should "AN EPISODE" be take literally--one episode--or might JW be giving us a fractional truth?

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[> [> Re: Another quote: SPOILER (spec) -- Deeva, 13:51:39 12/26/01 Wed

I read the same stuff at AICN. I think that all this speculation that whoever dies has something to do with either a four-letter word or name, that it might be L-O-V-E. Buffy had loved Riley but didn't realize it till it was too late. So I guess she sorta got over it or maybe not. So Riley comes back, not squished, just changed. I think that Riley is the one to die, F-I-N-N. Maybe he comes back as a vampire. Maybe he simply couldn't forget Buffy, so he decides to become like her ex and current(?) flame, fangy. But it still doesn't help his case so she or someone else dusts him. Actually that last sentence makes sense that someone else would stake Riley and not Buffy but she thinks she did it because there is a spoiler out there saying that she thinks that she killed somebody but actually didn't. But hey, what do I know I'm just along for the ride.

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[> [> [> If Riley or anyone else comes back and kills Spike- I will be so mad! -- Spike Lover, 12:20:31 12/27/01 Thu

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[> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? and Buffy Vs. Dracula -- anom, 16:30:35 12/26/01 Wed

"Well, over at the Spoiler Slayer there has been some speculation recently that Riley would return as a vampire and this quote does everything short of confirming this."

Don't be so sure. "Something more dramatic" could be lots of things, & Joss rarely does the obvious. Even when he does, there's usually a twist to it.

"And it doesn't seem like any accident that tonights Buffy episode was Buffy vs. Dracula, just to remind us that Buffy has always had thing for vampires,..."

I doubt Joss does anything "just" for 1 reason. It could also be a reminder about what Buffy doesn't know yet about her "true nature," as Drac put it. I think we'll see more about that in the rest of the season. Only how's she gonna know what was her original true nature & what might have been changed by her death & rebirth (or whatever the right term is)?

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[> [> What will Riley be? (Tongue firmly in cheek) -- Calluna, 18:02:39 12/26/01 Wed

I'm personally hoping he comes back with antlers, like the demon Dru dumped Spike for in S. America.:D Oh,the nasty memories it will bring back for Spike.

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[> [> [> For crying out loud.......isn't he tall enough already???...;) -- Rufus, 18:03:51 12/26/01 Wed

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[> [> [> [> But, Rufus, then he could get the cobwebs in the high corners...;-) -- purplegrrl, 09:23:42 12/28/01 Fri

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[> [> [> [> [> You are right...and sooo practical purplegrrl..........;) -- Rufus, 13:31:17 12/28/01 Fri

As one that is far enough away from the ceiling to miss most cobwebs that would be just another reason to have Riley around....we can't have him just sitting around doing nothing......:):):):):):)

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[> [> [> Can I request that spoilers not be put into the subject line? I don't want to have to stay away. :( -- Dyna, 19:40:42 12/26/01 Wed

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[> [> [> [> It is the official policy of this board that subject lines *always* avoid spoilers... -- OnM, 20:31:24 12/26/01 Wed

...but your reminder is very welcome.

And, we certainly don't want anyone to stay away because of this!

Everyone, and I include myself, PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!

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[> [> [> [> [> Please respond to Shaglio's suggestion in the thread above started by Nina... -- Wisewoman, 17:51:30 12/27/01 Thu

Maybe we can find an easier way to avoid spoiling people!

;o)

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[> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? and Buffy Vs. Dracula -- Rufus, 18:05:43 12/26/01 Wed

It would make wacky sense Riley being a vampire. He longed to create himself in an image Buffy would be interested in. That would also make him more of a danger to everyone. A nice pointy toothed, formerly cornfed Iowa boy....with a promise he made to Spike to keep......:):):):)

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[> [> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? spoilery specs -- Shiver, 18:26:07 12/26/01 Wed

It would be even better if Dru sired him. Buffy took Spike, so Dru takes Riley. I don't think Riley ever met Dru, but she'd know who he was with her "sight". Also, Spike can fight VampRiley :-) think Buff will stake Riley to save Spike? Oooh, all kinds of fun can happen here.

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[> [> [> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? spoilery specs -- Philistine, 22:33:38 12/26/01 Wed

"think Buff will stake Riley to save Spike?"

Perhaps not. But I definitely think Spike would stake Riley if he got a chance. I'm thinking of their conversation in ITW - Riley needed an excuse, Spike was just hoping for an opportunity.

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[> [> [> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? spoilery specs -- Gwyn, 20:17:09 12/27/01 Thu

It is possible for Dru to sire him....they are both in South America aren't they?

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[> [> [> [> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? spoilery specs -- purplegrrl, 09:28:35 12/28/01 Fri

Who knows where Drusilla is? Last we saw of her she was in Los Angeles.

And I thought Riley went to Central America (Belize?).

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[> [> [> Re: A Joss article, A major spoiler? and Buffy Vs. Dracula {speculation} -- VampRiley, 11:31:57 12/28/01 Fri

I'm not sure if Joss would do something as making Riley a vampire. It just seems as being a little too obvious to me. To me, it makes more sense to make Riley something that equals and is the opposite of vampires, Vampire Slayers, etc. You know, elevating him to something, something similar to what happened to Anya. I can see him being an unwitting participant in some sort of ritual that has been prophosized (that seems to be going around a lot these days). Something that is different than what most people expect. Maybe a demon, maybe an angel-type being. Something that helps him to make himself be more confident, higher self-esteem...something that makes him feel real good. When it was first happening, he struggled, then he adjusts, like Olaf the Troll, and finds that he likes who he is now. Much more than when he was just a regular G.I. Joe guy.

VR

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[> [> [> [> you mean you don't want to see him...(spoilers?) -- anom, 12:49:25 12/28/01 Fri

...live up to your posting name? @>)

"I'm not sure if Joss would do something as making Riley a vampire. It just seems as being a little too obvious to me."

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[> [> [> [> [> Not really when you consider part of why he left town..... -- Rufus, 13:35:44 12/28/01 Fri

Remember Riley just left...he never dealt with his addiction to vampire bites...and just because the vamp hookers are in a business doesn't mean accidents don't happen....:)

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[> [> [> [> [> Re: you mean you don't want to see him...(spoilers?) -- VampRiley, 15:10:54 12/28/01 Fri

One VampRiley is enough for me and I'm glad I'm him. Also, making him a vamp just seems a little too predictable.

One constant in both shows is the presence of vampires. Why not make him one?

It just a little on the side of repitition. Ford was someone who Buffy was crazy about and he became a vamp. I know the whole robot girlfriend things was also repeated, but neither lasted long. And the whole idea of having a lover of Buffy's turn into the bad guy, to me, would feel like a let down and seem kind of boring. It' been done. Do something different.

VR

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[> [> More spec on this spoiler (um, spoilers) -- darrenK, 15:41:58 12/27/01 Thu

You are right that Riley could come back as anything––a reindeer demon, a robot, a lot of things.

And, while it's true that the writers avoid the obvious, they also do a great job of building up to whatever the plot twist is, so that when you watch old reruns you realize that the "plot twist" was being foreshadowed for a long time, usually years in the very well plotted Jossverse.

It's for this reason that I think the Spoiler Slayer spoilers are correct and that Riley will go vamp. His rivalry with Angel, his fear of being just a normal joe after having his implant removed, his "affair" with the vampire prostitute, and his knowledge of Buffy's attraction to vamps, all point to him wanting to be one, rather than a slog demon for which I could think of no possible foreshadowing.

(Riley as a Slog demon, or anything else that stops him from being Captain Goody Two-Shoes would be cool .)

; )
dK

ATPoZine Quarterly & ponderings -- Solitude1056, 21:53:49 12/25/01 Tue

Okay, I've dealt with four large meals in four days (courtesy of the nuclear family, dammit) and while I'm probably going to be digesting for the next three days, I figure as long as I'm awake, I'll go ahead and drop a line about the Quarterly.

First, I have one column already, and just got an article submission idea from Humanitas. I haven't gotten anything from anyone else, so here's hoping that everyone else summarily forgot about letting us know what they're writing, and decided instead to just send the stuff. I'd prefer a head's up if you are writing something, just so LS, Marie & I have some idea of the upcoming load o' submissions. Obviously, if you're not writing anything, then disregard previous transmission. ;- )

On that note, I've not heard or seen much for the past month about the Quarterly except for a few posts on the board and one or two emails. Remember, the email address for all things quarterly is atpozine@yahoo.com, if you can't find the info page (which I still have to update, natch). I think it's www.ivyweb.com/btvs/zine.htm, but I'm not positive. My favorites are toast, so I'm a little clueless on the URLs that normally I'd have bookmarked. (I got hit by one of the trans virii, and ended up having to do a full rebuild on the only machine with internet access. A week without internet access feels like going without an arm, nowadays.)

That said, I'm curious as to who on the board still wants to see even an online version of the Quarterly. I don't know what my time is going to look like this upcoming spring, since my company's shutting down soonly and I asked to be in the first wave of layoffs, cause I'm going back to school. Gonna do that advanced degree stuff, finally... but I'm doing a heavy class load, so I'm not sure how many braincells I'll have to spare. And if doing the Quarterly requires me doing the cheerleading thing each and every day on the board, then I'm not sure it's going to work. Not trying to be snippy, just honest.

So, think about it - do you want the quarterly in truncated form (online only), or just online as a test drive and then push for the print version, or is it ally-samey to you, and continued essay additions would be just fine? I'd like to hear from as many folks as possible, since everyone's input (readers and writers alike) will help us decide, as a group, what we want to do with the idea. ;-)

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[> Re: ATPoZine Quarterly & ponderings -- Dedalus, 07:35:46 12/26/01 Wed

No, that was good and honest, with minimum snip. :-)

Argh, I should have had something in myself already, but I have been so tied up literary wise. One thing after another after another. However, I still certainly planned on having something in before the due date. I have an outline done and I was going to work on it the rest of the week. So still count me in, unless I get hit by a truck or something between now and Saturday.

Also, mundi said he sent an article in, so I don't know whether you got that or not.

I was getting so good about not procrastinating, but this has been one crazy, albeit good, Christmas season. I would like to see the Quarterly get off the ground, and I think most people who were interested would. I can see why you would not want to play the role of cheerleader, but I just assumed everything was proceeding like it was suppose to.

BTW, saw LOTR, and did like it better than the book. :-)

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[> [> Re: Glad you enjoyed it, Ded! -- mm, 15:40:50 12/26/01 Wed

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[> Re: ATPoZine Quarterly & ponderings -- mm, 13:11:38 12/26/01 Wed

(I'm assuming the column you mentioned was my own....)

For the record, I'm definitely down with the original Quarterly plan -- do the first issue online, and see how it goes. Much as I would love to see a printed issue down the road, my gut feeling tells me that a regular online 'zine would be a more realistic plan. (Could be wrong, of course.) Which is fine by me, but I wouldn't presume to speak for anyone else.

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[> Hey! Sol! -- Rufus, 02:19:44 12/28/01 Fri

Where do I send you what I have so far? Mail me.

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[> [> send it to atpozine@yahoo.com ;-) -- Solitude1056, 19:41:04 12/28/01 Fri

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[> [> [> Thanks, done......... -- Rufus, 20:28:46 12/28/01 Fri

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[> Re: ATPoZine Quarterly & ponderings -- Humanitas, 10:03:40 12/28/01 Fri

I'm all for going to a hard-copy version, assuming that our work merits it. ;) My vote is that we proceed with the original plan: put the first issue up on-line, and see where we want to go from there.

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[> [> Re: I pretty much have my doubts -- Dedalus, 15:27:38 12/28/01 Fri

If at this late date we only have what, one article in, for heaven's sake. I don't know how this will work. I would think they would be piling up by now, but this group can be rather reticent when it wants to be.

As for mine, after trying like hell to beat out an essay for the past few days and coming up with about half of one that is disjointed, forced, and more or less lame, it suddenly dawns on me that I can't write to a theme. I just can't write to a theme at all. The material has to be working on me, and right now I feel about as un-Buffy inspired as a person can possibly be. Also, I just can't get the length right now matter how hard I try. And frankly I'm getting really irritated. When I say "beat it out," I mean that as literally as you're willing to take it.

So if we've moved on from people no longer having the time or the interest to do it, than that is that. I am no longer on top of this because it's not my party anymore. I know nothing about the Quarterly scene, any way you want to slice it. If we've gone from my original book idea to a printed version of a magazine to an online version of it than I have to ask what's the point? This is going to be a lot of work for no one to turn a profit off of, and if we're going from the possible ten whole cents a printed issue for the respective authors to absolutely nothing on an online one, then for god's sake, just submit the stuff to Liq's site, and that will be that.

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[> [> [> Profit is *not* the purpose. -- Solitude1056, 19:29:53 12/28/01 Fri

True, we're not a sweetly altruistic bunch, willing to give our hard-earned pennies to the rubbish bin just so we have a printed version, but come on. Money isn't all there is - it's certainly never been my motivation. Honestly, the point isn't to make money or even to make a name for anyone... the point is to disseminate long essays, gathering everyone under a common umbrella, in a way we don't have room space or time to do here. The posting board is great if your essays/posts cap out at about 1500 words, plus it tends to be one person posting, with others responding.

The idea of a theme is a way to cohesively organize a series of presentations or essays - like a printed conference - so that we can all see and read each other's explications with plenty of room to stretch our literary/philosophical legs. An online or printed journal would give us that room, plus it wouldn't discriminate based on someone's collegiate level like most academic journals do. Our only requirement is that you have something new to say, and can present it intelligently - hell, we even have volunteers ready to help you edit it for coherence, if needed.

So I'd guess that you're just frustrated, Ded, cause what you're saying sounds kinda like the next step is to say that if money/recognition isn't involved, what's the point in even posting here, and I don't think that's the implicit conclusion you intended. But I can answer it, anyway: because there's a whole bunch of people here who like conversations that don't consistent entirely of statements like "spike is kewl." ;-) Now it's just up to everyone to consider whether or not those conversations are enough to warrant organizing our otherwise haphazard essayists into a combined unit.

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[> [> [> [> Re: Sigh -- Dedalus, 08:27:02 12/29/01 Sat

In terms of length and gathering everyone together under a common umbrella, I was merely pointing out we already have the other site for that. I'm surprised more people here haven't taken advantage of it. And that doesn't involve profit or much recognition either, but it's already there, especially if people aren't going to have lots of extra time to work on other things.

"Our only requirement is that you have something new to say, and can present it intelligently" - well, that's what I'm having issues with. I'm not debating the merits of having a theme, and I know what it is there to do. I'm just saying at this present time I am getting nowhere with it. I should be able to, but for whatever dumb reason, I'm not.

It's still a good idea, but if only two or three people are hip to it, I don't see how it is ever going to come together.

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[> Re: ATPoZine Quarterly & ponderings -- LadyStarlight, 19:30:40 12/28/01 Fri

I think the second draft version of the original plan is the most feasible, ie, try the online version, gauge the interest and then go for a print copy (if only so I have something to show my relatives when they say "So, what have you been up to?" ;))

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[> [> what, like the hooligans don't take up enough of your time? ;-) -- Solitude1056, 19:38:54 12/28/01 Fri

An inside look into the Buffy/Spike relationship (very, very, very long!) -- Nina, 22:01:30 12/25/01 Tue

FOREWORDS

I've been wondering whether I should post this "essay" or not. I really wrote it for myself, but Aquitaine, who hasn't read the essay yet, insisted that I shared it with all of you. "Think about those who don't dare to post", she told me. So here I am. But be warned, it's wacky and it might not please everyone!

Last time I talked with Aquitaine, we had a long discussion about Spike and Buffy. She asked me a lot of questions I had no answers to. The next day my mind started spinning and spinning and I came with answers. Not the way I wanted them to come to me, but answers nevertheless. My mind really didn't give me a lot of space to work this out. It just spilled information and I was trying to jot it down as fast as I could. I've been writing about this for days now, trying to make as much sense as I can with the 30 pages I wrote on my spiral book. It's long, but I really tried to keep it compact, believe me.

Spoilers until "Wrecked" only.

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INTRODUCTION

I've been very surprised that the sex happened so soon in "Smashed. The first S/B coupling happens exactly when Spike tells Buffy he can fight her again. At that precise moment, they start to fight and they have sex. The move to upgrade their relationship to lover status made me think that Buffy has been waiting for that moment for a long time (unconsciously). It also made me think that Spike's "neutered" status was the reason why she was so mean to him during season 5. Spike used to be dangerous. He used to be a worthy enemy. Then he became a liability and an impotent. Spike had to got his rocks back with her to even stand a chance to get her.

Buffy: The Slayer/Vampire relationship

We know that vampires and slayer are sexual metaphors. On one hand, the vampires penetrate their victims with their teeth, biting them into a mortal embrace. On the other hand, the slayer's stake is a sexual form for a penis and every time Buffy stakes a vamp she impales them through their hearts. Night after night she's having casual sex with them. The sex according to a slayer. She sees them, she stakes/has sex with them and moves on. That's the dance Spike is referring to. Vampires and slayer dance together until one of them dies. Only Buffy never dies from those fights. She is like the Black widow. The spider that kills her one night stands.

Buffy's whole conflict rises from the fact that she is not only a slayer. She is a slayer AND Buffy. She can't just wear a slayer outfit at night and put it back in the closet when she is regular Buffy. The attraction the slayer feels, Buffy feels it too. But the attraction that would be enough for the slayer can't satisfy regular Buffy completely. She needs love too. Love based on something deeper than sexual attraction. Buffy who doesn't want to merge with her slayer persona represses the attraction. She pushes it all back to an unconscious level. There she can feel safe and believe that regular Buffy only needs love.

Kendra represents Buffy and Faith's middle. She shows us what happens when a slayer is raised like an automaton that is cut from any sexual desire or love. She's a solitaire and Mr. Pointy becomes a metaphor for masturbation. That's all she has left.

Faith on the other hand represents Buffy's antithesis. She gets off with the fighting. She merges completely with her slayer persona (until it even destroys the regular Faith in her). Faith gets the attraction and accepts it, but denies love. As long as Buffy and Faith deny one part of their personality, they can't be happy.

It isn't a coincidence that Buffy's first love is a vampire. When Buffy falls for Angel, her body recognizes him before her mind knows who he really is. She loves him for his kindness and what he represents to her (a first prince-charming/mysterious love) but I think she is also attracted to the vampire in him. She kisses him while he is vamped in "What's my line part 1" and gets off on his biting her in "Graduation Day". She accepts and needs the whole deal.

Angel and Buffy could have been lovers forever. But there was one big problem. Angel couldn't satisfy her sexually without turning into a wild best that killed her friends. Angel understood that. He could give her the love regular Buffy needed, but he couldn't satisfy the slayer sexually. Their relationship was doomed for that reason.

Spike: The Vampire/Slayer relationship

Normal vampires are afraid of the slayer. They flee from her. The reckless ones try to take her on in a dance of death, but it's rare. Spike is an exception to the rule. As soon as he hears about the slayer he looks out for her: "There's glory, there's death and sod all else". Killing slayers becomes his Holy Grail. The bravest thing a vamp can attempt to do.

But Spike, like Buffy, has an inner conflict. He feels the attraction with the slayer because he is a vampire, but his human side craves for love as well. Buffy denies the slayer in her. Spike denies the human William in him. As the Big Bad, he is under Dru's influence and his human side, which needs love, has to remain repressed.

To impress his lady love Spike finds his first slayer during the Boxer rebellion, he fights her, drinks her, gets off with her blood. That kill wasn't about flirting, it was about killing. It took him 77 years to find another slayer to kill. What took him so long? According to Spike he knew all along that it would be better to f*ck a slayer than to kill one. When he said those words in "Wrecked" the words themselves were important, but the way he said them gave us even more hints to his inner psyche. It was a revelation. He said those words as if he finally got an answer to his prayers. Maybe his good day with the first slayer wasn't such a good day after all. He got respect from his gang, but he didn't get to f*ck the slayer. He didn't let his human side connect with the slayer. Whatever happened between 1900 and 1977, Spike approaches the new slayer differently.

The second fight is not about the blood. It's about flirting. He is looking for something more this time. The NY slayer is hot and he dances with her. He straddles her, but something is amiss, she is not what he is looking for. He doesn't even drink her. He just kills her like a broken doll. A toy that can't give him what he needs… until Buffy comes along…

SPIKE AND BUFFY: THE EVOLUTION OF THEIR ATTRACTION AND LOVE

Warning!

I believe that all the emotions I'm describing bellow are real, but repressed on an unconscious level. Buffy doesn't acknowledge her attraction to Spike and represses her feelings because if she isn't ready to merge with the slayer in her yet. As for Spike he doesn't deny the attraction like Buffy does, but he denies the love he has for her. Accepting what he really feels means that he has to deal with his human side and he isn't ready for that until OomM.

From "School Hard" to "Surprise"

JM's really played Spike's attraction to Buffy in "School Hard". It is obvious that this slayer is different for him. He can't even wait St-Vigeous to take her on. It's interesting to note that the first time Spike sees Buffy she is not in slayer mode. She dances sexily with Xander. She's very feminine and before he even sees her fight he his entranced. Buffy was probably the only slayer he saw with such light and life in her heart. From that moment he becomes the bug flying around her light, looking for enlightenment (very unconsciously at first). As far as cheating goes, we can say that Spike cheated on Dru well before she did cheat on him with Angelus. Spike's mind was all about Buffy as soon as he saw her. I'd even say that he fell in love with her light right then.

When Spike arrives in town, he is not the regular kind of vampire Buffy meets in the cemetery every night. They don't have a usual slayer/vampire relationship (stake and dust!) Spike doesn't fit her one night stand type. There's mutual respect. They are valuable enemies that know how to fight. And they both like it that way: "I'd rather fight you anyway" (WmL2) . I think it's mostly due to the fact that Spike first appears to Buffy with his human face in "School hard". Except for Angel, it's probably the first time Buffy is seeing the real face of a vampire. There's honesty from the start. Spike is also resilient and therefore he catches her attention. A kind of "um, if I can't just stake/have casual sex with him he may be more".

For Spike it's love at first sight, for Buffy it's only the slayer who is aroused. Buffy can't love Spike as long as he can't show love to the regular Buffy (not the Big Bad type of love, but sweetness and comfort).

During these episodes they don't bond. They only size each other. It's all about the kill.

From "Becoming II" to "Harsh Light of Day"

That's their first pre-chip bonding time. When they fight, they always talk about their lovers. That's the way they bond: they bond over their relationship problems. There's a lot of sexual tension and jealousy about the other's partner.

In "Becoming II", Buffy has her first meaningful talk with Spike. It's funny how they seem both jealous from the other's ex-lover. Buffy calls Dru a ho and Spike wants to put Angel in the bloody ground. When Joyce catches them, they lie like lovers trying to cover their affair. They are bonding, but it's only a start ; when it's time to save Buffy, Spike doesn't care enough to stay.

* What's already there behind the attraction: They fight together against a mutual enemy and it looks natural (like it was for Joan and Randy). Buffy trusts Spike enough to invite him in her home. She also already gives him the responsibility to protect a member of her family (Giles as father).

In "lover's walk", there's a lot of sexual tension when they meet again. She threatens him with the stake (penis), then strangles him with one hand and holds his lower belly with the other. Their conversation looks like one ex-lover would have: "You shouldn't have come back Spike". We know from FFL that Spike is covered with the Slayer. He probably came back to Sunnydale for her. But it's still on an unconscious level. Spike wants Dru back, because for him too it's easier to deny how he feels.

* What's already there behind the attraction: . Spike's ability to understand how Buffy feels is already present and she recognizes it: "I can't fool myself or Spike for some reason".

In "Harsh Light of Day", they meet like ex-lovers again. "Sort of a double date", Spike offers. They look at their mutual lovers and mocks the other on their choice. The slayer in Buffy is pissed off that Harmony got to Spike before her, so she rams the memory of Dru in Spike's face: "What's the matter Spike, Dru dumped you again?". Their final fight is very sexual. They both end up with their hands on the stake: "Do it again, it tickles, in a good way". Spike's jealous of Parker and hurts Buffy emotionally as much as he can.

* What's already there behind the attraction: They share things in common. They share the same pain of being dumped by the loved one. They are both strong. They are Ying and Yang in their energy. In HloD they are as equal as they can be. They will have to wait until "Smashed" before that kind of balance comes back again.

"Pangs" and "Something Blue"

The sexual tension boils as they are forced to bond on a day-to-day basis.

"Pangs" changes everything. What used to be an equal battle becomes an unfair fight. Spike is chipped and the chip makes him impotent to Buffy's eyes. The chip's sexual metaphor is played from the beginning and proves how it affects Spike not only in his food habits, but also on his ability to get to Buffy. Neutered he has no chance at all. He only gets invited to Giles' when Willow exposes his inability to perform. Buffy ridicules him and laughs at him. She makes him feel inadequate sexually. But there's also a lot of touching and bantering. While Angel is on the outside, Spike is inside now.

In "Something Blue" Willow's spell forces in the open what lied in the shadow. When they are engaged they continue to act the same way they always do around the other, except that the attraction is in the open instead of being repressed. It can't be nice because Spike has not accepted his human side yet and Buffy is not in love with Spike yet.

Hush to Primeval (with the exception of Superstar)

Once the spell is broken, Buffy is forced back to reality. Spike is neutered. His strength has vanished. He's useless. Spike has no love to offer to the regular Buffy and no sexual capacity to seduce the slayer in her. As Spike doesn't exist anymore in her mind, she settles for the white-picket- fence boyfriend that will give her the illusion of normality (and from that moment ignores Spike almost for the rest of the season).

In "Doomed", Buffy is annoyed by Spike's presence: "It's not like he can fight or anything" . He's worthless to her not only because he can't fight, but also because he can't keep her on the edge like before, he can't satisfy her sexually.

In "Who are you" the sexual tension is brought back between Buffy and Spike (even if it's not the real Buffy). Spike is aroused. In "Superstar" he gets back to Buffy, reminding her that he will get her one day: "One of these days sweet slayer…" Next thing we know Spike tries to lose the chip. As long as the chip is in his noggins there's no way for him to get to Buffy. So Spike accepts Adam's offer and tricks Buffy in order to get to her. He fails and Buffy continues to ignore him.

So what happens in season 5 that changes everything?

"Buffy Vs Dracula" to "Fool for Love"

There's been a lot of discussions about Buffy's "bitchy" ways with Spike. How she punched him all the time while he couldn't defend himself. So what really started the let's-punch- Spike phase? What happened that made her jump from ignoring him to punching him all the time?

At the beginning of the fifth season, Buffy's relationship with white-picket-fence-perfect-normal boyfriend is not going very well. The first minute of "Buffy Vs Dracula" confirms it. Buffy cheats on Riley well before Riley cheats on her. She gets out of bed to stake/have casual sex with vampires. She's leaving their bed like a woman who's trying to conceal an affair. And she's been doing that ALL summer (that what she says to Giles). The hint here is that Buffy can't be satisfy with only regular love. The slayer in her needs more and she's going to get her fix every night.

I wrote a long post during the summer hiatus about how Dracula made Buffy act so meanly with Spike in the beginning of season 5. I think I got it wrong. I thought then that Buffy was afraid to be bitten by Dracula. Afraid of the power of his thrall on her. I though that she felt raped by Drac and that the similarities she saw between Spike and the count made her unleash her frustration on Spike. That might be right for the regular Buffy in her, but not for the slayer.

In Giles' apartment, Buffy goes on an on about Dracula's accent and his penetrating eyes (two attributes that make Spike so unique) and the fact that he came to Sunnydale to see her: "Count famous heard of me". Buffy is not being mean to Spike because Dracula scared her, she's pissed at him for being neutered and not being able to give her what she wants from him. Now that her relationship with Riley is going down the well, she's reminded that she could have had Spike if only he could "perform".

This starts the punch fest I believe. From that moment, Buffy reminds Spike that he's not worthy of her. Every time Spike is vulnerable she's punching him ("real me" and "no place like home"), when he shows he can fights vamps (beginning of OomM) she's also angry because it reminds her that he can fight…. only not her. There's no way she would just throw insults at him if the answer to her behavior wasn't running deep inside her. I think the slayer in her is just desperate for Spike to lose the chip, be the vamp he once was. Be it only to get a good fight

By "Out of my Mind", Spike gets the revelation of his love for Buffy. Some people might say it came out of nowhere. But I don't believe that. Something deep happened to Spike that made him unable to lie to himself anymore. In the same way Spike was offered to get rid of the chip after "Who are you", he gets another chance in that episode. And who gives him that chance this time? Buffy herself. Buffy comes to Spike and tells him that her lover is not satisfying her slayer side. He's weak and needs attention. Spike takes the tip for what it is: an invitation to get rid of the chip. That's the only way he knows to get to her and satisfy the slayer in her (what Riley obviously can't do).

It's interesting to note that in the Magic Box, before coming to see Spike, Buffy says to her friends: "The guy is starting to bug me in that I-want-to-shove-something-pointy-through-his-heart kinda way". She's using the sexual metaphor of the stake again. By coming to see Spike she's unconsciously giving him the key to becoming the vampire she wants him to be.

I said earlier that Spike fell in love with Buffy's light as soon as he saw her. He's craving for that light and I don't think it is a coincidence if Spike ends up to be literally bathed in light on the operation table in OomM. We even get to see his blue eyes! He's stripped away from the mask. The metaphor of the light on him is probably what came back into his dream. He says he wants to bathe in the slayer's blood, but really what he wants is to bathe in her light. There's light on the operating table, but there's also a lot of light in his crypt when Buffy comes in his dream. The walls are almost white. Buffy is wearing white.

Spike's attempt at removing the chip fails and Spike can't even deny his love for Buffy anymore. He is left with no other choice but to try to come to the regular Buffy. Change for her so he can be worthy of her love. This is a hard road because it means that he has to accept the William side of himself first. The "weak" side of himself. (Buffy even calls him "William" as soon as she sees him back.)

Buffy's reaction is also very foretelling. Once she realizes what Spike has been doing with her information (in OomM), she's preparing herself to go kill him. He's going to get her the fight she wants. When he almost bites her she doesn't move or try to shove him away. Why? I think the slayer in her has been waiting for that moment so long that she can't move. There's a lot of sexual tension in that moment. She wants Spike. I don't think she wants him to kill her, but she wants the sexual act that comes with the biting. Spike can't perform and leaves her with her weak normal boyfriend. The slayer in her is frustrated. Next time she sees Spike she punches him on the nose. She doesn't want to kill him, she's just angry because he got her hopes up and he didn't satisfy her.

In FFL, Spike tries to give her another fight. Buffy is aroused from that fight, but in the end she reminds him that it's all a fake. She might want to dance, but she won't because he is beneath her. He can't give her a real fight. He can't be her lover if he can't fight her. And as long as he is neutered, he will be beneath her. He won't be her equal like he was pre-chipped. (The way Buffy's panting around Spike in the alley, I wonder if the events in "Smashed" wouldn't have happened sooner if Spike had been able to punch her then!)

At the end of FFL, Buffy doesn't react to Spike carrying a gun. Their relationship is not about killing the other and she instinctively knows it. It's all about the dance. And they danced that night and she felt the arousal. Spike sees her despair and offers his help. I believe that's when Buffy's has her own revelation about her love for Spike. Buffy sees what we all saw: the softer side of Spike. The comfortador. The caring man behind the mask. He reached for the first time to her heart. She talks to him about his mother. She cries in front of him. From that moment she doesn't punch him anymore except without having a good reason to do so.

Buffy is soon confronted to a new dilemma. The slayer in her might be attracted to Spike, but there's no way regular Buffy can love a killer, a soulless demon. No matter how hard Spike tries to get to her by changing his ways, she's resisting. He must remain a disgusting thing.

"Listen to Fear" to "Blood Ties"

This is a transition phase. Both Spike and Buffy know they are in love with each other. Buffy still denies it and Spike is in stalker mode, not daring yet to expose his feelings. Their relationship is stalling and they bond over the things that linked them outside of their mutual love/attraction. All the things I mention in the * What's already there behind the attraction sections.

Spike and Buffy fight the Queller monster together in "Listening to fear". Spike reads into Buffy's insecurities in "Checkpoint", Buffy gets to witness Spike's strength, his virility and his ability to fight, even though he is chipped in "Into the Woods" (there's a big close-up on Spike saying "I said keep it down" while he's rude to a vamp) and in "Checkpoint" (Spike jumps from nowhere and dusts a vamp for her). Buffy ends up trusting him with his family. "You're the only one strong enough to protect them". He's strong enough to protect them, but not enough to be her man (not as long as he is chipped). And she keeps reminding him that: "You're disgusting". Any excuse is good after all. In "Blood Ties" Spike shows her honesty and doesn't take her crap. She likes that he takes him along with her to look for Dawn. There she witnesses the soft side of Spike again: "You'll find her".

"Crush "to "Intervention"

By "Crush", Spike has gained a little confidence from what they share in common. Buffy trusted in him to protect her loved ones and they fought together against common enemies. He's hoping to get some recognition but Buffy crushes his hopes by reminding him that he wasn't a good fighter. She brings back to his face his inability to please her as a virile man. "Whatever you do you can't have me as long as you have the chip in your head". To prove her point she flirts with Ben with whom she has nothing in common. By talking with boring Ben, Buffy sends the message to Spike that even a bland man has more chance to get to her than him. At least Ben could take her sexually if she let him. While Spike is slowly trying to change and become a better man, Buffy chooses to see the surface and the fact that he's impotent.

When Dawn te